Trying to Feel Like Me Again
If you caught my last journal entry, Broken Bones to Kidney Stones, you would know that I have spent the last few weeks trying to recover from a kidney stone procedure and stent placement. That stent was probably one of the most uncomfortable, irritating, and painful things I have ever endured- and I had two babies.
The only relief I felt was lying horizontal. I just couldn’t move, because if I moved, I felt it. Sometimes I could sit up for a short amount of time, but mainly laid down, plopped my computer on my belly, and typed cranking my neck trying to see my keyboard.
I am someone who needs movement, expel energy, and do something productive. I have had my fair share of lazy days, but nothing like this.
I thought I was going to crazy. Two weeks never felt longer in my life. Each day I got closer to the removal of the stent, but it still seemed like it was too far away.
I know I should have enjoyed the rest. I could take naps when I wanted. I got out of cooking, cleaning, diaper changes, and the tough bedtime routine with my toddler. I had a legit excuse to just do nothing.
However, it didn’t fit me. It doesn’t fit me. I need to be active, organized, involved, always working towards a goal. Most importantly, I need to feel capable of taking care of my boys, my house, my responsibilities. And I just couldn’t.
I was so far from who I was, it was hard not to feel hopeless.
When you don’t do things that align with who you are, you can send yourself into an identity crisis spiral.
I kept having to pull myself out of that mental funk I was feeling. I had to look for opportunities to feel like myself. What I found I could still do was work on my computer. I was able to cross off TWO huge projects I had on my to-do list for who knows how long.
I finally found an opportunity to truly focus on them.
So while I laid in bed, I plopped that computer right onto of me, and created two new resources for YOU.
The first one is The Easy Journal. This is a 30 day guided journal filled with my favorite questions I have asked clients. My process to asking questions, (and if you are or have been a client you may have caught on) is I ask multiples of the same question but in a different format.
The process to answering any good question is this: Brain dump the ideas that first come to your head, discover what the information is on the page and what your subconscious is telling you, get clarity from the information, and use it to take action towards bettering yourself, accomplishing goals, etc.
This journal gives you all that.
The second resource I accomplished is The 90 Day Sustainable Routine Change Challenge.
If you are struggling with holding yourself accountable towards habits, goals, or behavior changes that align with either diet, exercise, personal development, and environment, this journal is for you.
This guided workbook gives you the step by step process you need to set sustainable routine changes to the four elements that run our life (key word RUN.) If YOU want to run your life instead, get control over diet, exercise, personal development, and environment.
Once you understand the tools and resources, begin to apply this same process to other major areas of your life, such as work\career, relationships, travel, family, etc.
Now that I am recovered, and working on my elements again, I feel like ME.
